May 16 2009
Life is Everywhere
Maybe it was in the desert too, lost between the folds of brown and the billows of dust. Somewhere so distant that I lost sight of it throughout the years and just couldn’t see it through my jaded eyes any longer. Maybe.
I can tell you though, I have never seen life the way I see it now. Illinois has shown me what it is to live. What it is to have life springing up from nothing all around me. Spring. It has a meaning now, a true definition that has grabbed me and taken hold. I am completely enveloped in this season we call Spring and the life that is surrounding me. I literally walk around daily in a state of complete and utter awe. God’s hand is truly awesome.
Oh those colors! The vibrancy, the beauty is breath taking! Shades of green I have never seen before that nearly look neon in certain light. The flowers have colors that are so deep and so rich, I almost feel as though those colors can only be created in little plastic buckets with pellets for the purpose of dying Easter Eggs! The earthly palette here is inspiring. My camera has become a permanent part of my wardrobe these days. I never leave the house without it. I see the world as a photograph. One giant canvas at my disposal. Different lighting, different angles, times of day, seasons, subjects, foregrounds, oh my gosh I get so caught up I hardly remember there is life outside of this perfect little bubble that I live in!
My life here is amazing. I have found a happiness; a peace that I have never before experienced. Small town life suits me just right. I love the small town people. I love the small town atmosphere. I love the slow easy way of life in the midwest. I feel like I am home.
I do have a whole lot of city in me that needs to be weeded out, but slowly it is slipping away. I say “supper” (and have been chastised by city folk for it too! lol), I love to fall asleep to the sounds of the tree frogs outside of my window and I wake with the sun to the sounds of the birds singing every morning. It doesn’t get much better than this. This is my own paradise right here. I have nested and I don’t plan on going any where, ever.
J has always been my muse. It’s so much more intense now that I get to share my life with him in this capacity. Up close and personal has opened up my creativity in a way I never imagined it would. It seems that I can’t go five minutes in the day without a creative desire or ambition coming to mind. I share with him and he makes it happen. He gives me the skills, the technical capacity to create at my whim. He never inhibits me. He never hinders my desires and he is always pushing me to be the best that I can be, no matter what that is; no matter the capacity. We are all thriving with each other. It’s amazing. This life.
I am growing within my new life as much as life is growing within this new season around me. Capturing it all on film is just a part of the miracle called living. Actually breathing it all in is another part.
I just can’t seem to get enough.
