Oct 31 2009
She’s Coming! Santa Claus Is Stuffing My Stocking!
- My Christmas Present
With her!
I just found out today, that my very Beautiful Teenage Princess is coming to Illinois to spend Christmas with us! As soon as she gave me the news, I immediately began crying. My heart just about burst inside of my chest into a million little pieces out of the sheer joy I was feeling!
My arms ache to feel her safely tucked within.
My bosom yearns to feel her weight as I hold her close to me.
I long to smell her hair.
I recall the feeling I had when I was forced to leave her behind in the hospital after she was born. The ache that I felt every single day, every single moment, that I was not with my baby. That is what I have carried around with me for over a year now.
Hearing the news of her coming was like hearing the news that she could finally come home with me, that she was going to finally be released from the hospital. The gamut of emotions that ran through my body both then and now, are tremendous and overwhelming; and the exact same.
I simply don’t even know what to do with myself.
I might sit here and cry for a spell longer, please excuse the tear puddles all over the place.
Just slip past and ignore the crazy woman babbling like a baby……
