Quitter? or Realist…….

What is it about making a decision to simplify your life is the most stressful decision to make? Does that make any sense?Here I’ve been struggling with the decision to step down at work. My personal life has been riddled with stress and worries, then I go to work and compound the stress to the point that I can’t even think anymore. The decision to step down is to give me a stress free position at work so that I can concentrate on my personal life and try to make life for my children easier, so they aren’t so affected by my stresses. Yet, coming to the decision, approaching the manager with this decision, and making it a reality has stressed me out more than the position has. Only difference really is that it is a temporary stress. Unlike the position, which is stressful every day.I feel like a quitter. I have never been a quitter. Is it so much quitting, or is it more like being a realist and understanding and acknowledging an incompetence in a certain area. We are not perfect, therefore no human is going to master everything they dive into. But, to realize this outwardly, and choose to focus yourself in another direction, is that considered being a quitter?It’s the same with the puppy.He’s having a real hard time coming through this. We are getting to the point where there may have to be a decision made to stop trying to save his life, and let the vet actually take it. I don’t know how I am going to handle that. Again, does that make one a quitter? Or, do we simply continue with treatment that isn’t helping just in the name of “saving” his life, especially when you can’t afford the bills any longer? How much do I let suffer in the name of saving the dog? Car insurance, mortgage, electric, phone? Where’s the line you draw, and when you draw that line, where does that leave you? Feeling as, and labeled as a quitter?

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What is it about making a decision to simplify your life is the most stressful decision to make? Does that make any sense?Here I’ve been struggling with the decision to step down at work. My personal life has been riddled with stress and worries, then I go to work and compound the stress to the point that I can’t even think anymore. The decision to step down is to give me a stress free position at work so that I can concentrate on my personal life and try to make life for my children easier, so they aren’t so affected by my stresses. Yet, coming to the decision, approaching the manager with this decision, and making it a reality has stressed me out more than the position has. Only difference really is that it is a temporary stress. Unlike the position, which is stressful every day.I feel like a quitter. I have never been a quitter. Is it so much quitting, or is it more like being a realist and understanding and acknowledging an incompetence in a certain area. We are not perfect, therefore no human is going to master everything they dive into. But, to realize this outwardly, and choose to focus yourself in another direction, is that considered being a quitter?It’s the same with the puppy.He’s having a real hard time coming through this. We are getting to the point where there may have to be a decision made to stop trying to save his life, and let the vet actually take it. I don’t know how I am going to handle that. Again, does that make one a quitter? Or, do we simply continue with treatment that isn’t helping just in the name of “saving” his life, especially when you can’t afford the bills any longer? How much do I let suffer in the name of saving the dog? Car insurance, mortgage, electric, phone? Where’s the line you draw, and when you draw that line, where does that leave you? Feeling as, and labeled as a quitter?

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