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They’ve already been chewn down to the bits.

I woke this morning, healed a couple of instances (although am really tired of pug’in with 6 yr olds, jest sayin’), made bacon and blueberry pancakes, cleaned the kitchen, scrubbed out the refrigerator, wiped down the walls, vacuumed & dusted the living room, vacuumed the kitchen (yes, it’s carpeted *ugh*) and started laundry. After breakfast I vacuumed the stairs ( I *really* hate that), cleaned the bathroom, cleaned & vacuumed the bedroom and am now waiting to switch and fold laundry so I can run some more.

*Breathe*

I believe I am working out my nervous energies. I am nervous for tomorrow, but in a good way. Nervous excitement I suppose.  It feels good. To be excited about a tomorrow. It’s going to be rough sleeping tonight, and waking in the morning full of delight rather than loathing will be a welcomed switch.

I have to decide yet what I am going to wear for my first day in my new position. Don’t eye roll. It’s a HUGE deal, the clothing, as it’s the first impression and it needs to count. Am feeling the pressure. It feels damned good too!

I am going to thrive, I just know it. Now, since I’ve cleaned everything to clean, I need to figure out what I am going to do between folding loads of laundry to keep my mind busy. Maybe I’ll just have to pug with some more 6 yr olds and blast their asses for their idiopathic ways.

Yeah.  

Well, for the most part anyways.

If you consider escaping with my dignity and my pride in tact, then I think I did good. After months and months of torment, harassment and various other forms of  negativeness, I am finally moving on.

On my terms.

That’s what it’s all about folks.

Bearing down, gritting your teeth, taking what you must, and with a grain of salt. Each day is but a mere blink of an eye in this life. Sometimes you just have to tell yourself over and over again “Smile and wave boys, smile and wave” in order to make it through. When it’s all said and done, keeping your head will pan out in the end for the better of all.

I walked out the doors and drove the long drive home for the last time.  I am starting a new chapter in my life and closing the door on this past year forever. I can’t say that I am walking away with very many positive experiences, however, I can say that I am hoping the negative ones will pan out and become positive ones within my future position. I see the negative as what I don’t want to become, a learning experience of what I don’t want to do, leading me into a more positive roll for myself and my new co-workers. I think I have seen and been through every single negative thing that one could possibly imagine seeing or going through within a company. It is going to make me a million times more appreciative of my new place of work as well.

I see a brighter year ahead for myself and I couldn’t be more excited, open and ready for it either.

It has been a humbling year. One that has torn me down to the bare bones, exposing all of my flaws, weaknesses, injuries, shames and sorrows and throwing them all in my face over and over again. I have been punished on many levels and was made raw in the process.

Now it’s time to come out, come back, stronger and better than ever and this is just the beginning.

I say goodbye to all that has hurt me.

Goodbye to all that threatened to take away my dignity, my pride.

Goodbye to those who did nothing more than try to keep me down day after day.

Hello new chapter.

Monday starts my new job, my new life, my new me.

I don’t think I have ever looked forward to a Monday with so much excitement and hope before! There is truly a first for everything!

True that folks! So, here’s the skinny of it all.

I got mahself a new shiny new job! It’s an up in position, for me. I suppose some wouldn’t consider middle management an up, but when you’re coming from the very bottom rung, sometimes even further down than that run depending on the day, it’s an up. To me, it’s a stepping stone. One can’t go forward through the muck without such things as stepping stones. I am completely thrilled, totally excited, a little frightened – but I think that fright will be a good thing and make me even better than I anticipate.

It’s at a different bank than the one I am currently working as a part time peon. I will be Assistant Manager at this new bank, which is also located about 15 minutes closer to my house, saving me time on the drive, gas, wear and tear on my car….etc.  The pay is ridiculously better, but, that’s not saying much as I would be turning cartwheels over anything right now since I am getting paid about the equivalent of a kernel of corn a day.  I just don’t think I could be more ecstatic than I have been all week.

This will be my last Wednesday ever in my current position. Squeeeeee!

On that note, I am taking Wednesday and created a WoW wednesday. Yes, I play Wow. Yes, I am growing an addiction. It’s a mere slight appendage right now, but it has potential.  This is my main me. This is also me. I have a couple of other me’s too that I am bringing up, but they aren’t quite ready for the public just yet. They are still a little shy.

So, I found this while perusing the internets today, thought I’d share on this W0W Wednesday. Enjoy! Have a great hump day y’all!